“I am afraid of my own memories’

At some moments of funerals in Gaza in the past 15 months, mourn, placed a light orange cloth over the body.

The clothes are usually well worn and marked by the dust, sometimes blood. Belong to marital defense, the main emergency service of Gaza.

In all Israelian bombing, the marital defense was responsible for pulling life and dead by the rubble. Along the gaza’s ambane service, backup workers are taken over some of the most ruining work in the strip.

And they paid a steep price. The first day full of peace on Monday, the agency said that 99 € of their workers have been killed and 319 injuries, some changing angels.

When civil-defenses behaves no, where is the duties possible of the dead people were in their bodies.

“We showed up there because his colleague his soul in her” said NOOH Al-Shagnobi, a phone’s phone worker from Gaza City.

“We hope to God that this man has done nice with his life, he saved others.”

Israel has killed more than 47,000 Palestinians in Gaza in the conflict and children – and hurts more than 111, cooked to the Hamas-run by the Unsaid by the One. A recent study posted by Medical Medica Lancet found that death of death during the first nine months of the war can be undervalued by more than 40%.

The fragile ceases that entered effect the last weekend. But for the braincase workers of the Marital Defense, the next stage of their work is just started.

The Agencies estimate that there are more than 10,000 people buried under the vast rubble to the gaza. The figure is based on the information collected across the war at each building destroyed by Israel, and the agency knew to have been written.

In areas that have been completed by Israelie forces during destruction, do not have detailed information and entered residents to help. In the neighbor’s Tel El El HAA HAWA Tuesday, the salvation worker who found a man with the man with the fate of the fate of a parcel of a building.

“It told you seven mother and there was a senior genre, a boy and a child left behind,” al-shagnobi said.

“Fortunately there was a private bulldozer” and below we found three skeletons that have made the description. “

Al-Shagnobi accepted a great next during war to share their experiments in social media. Although he pixels some images, others show the horror and other wild young people have faced.

A video shows him under the rubble carefully, dangerous a child’s body from the body of another small child, who is alive. Other images, sent to the BBC shows the extreme nature of the backup.

“You have to become the time,” Al-Shagnobi said, during a changing gaza. “But I’ve become worse. I feel more painful, not lesser. I look more difficult. I saw 50 of my colleagues die in front of me. Who’s gaza can imagine this?”

As the first Israeli’s first release has been released by the generation last week, inside 9 of 40 Palestines by Israeli authorities described the extensive psychological support.

But for those who experience the horror in Gaza, such a support is extremely limited. None of the four backup workers talking to BBC this week from Gaza said they were offered advice.

“We all need this ,,, said Mohammed LaFi’s worker, a 25-year-old worker,” but no one is talking “.

LaFI, that has been with the agency of I six years old, has a wife and son Drawn at home. “When you pull the body of a baby from the rubble the cries in myself if he is the same age as my son. My boss shock.”

Even if you have been highly available “a year of therapy would not be for a day of this job,” said Abdullah Al-Majdlawi, a Jaza in Gaza in Gaza in Jaza’s city . I am

Al-Majdalawi said that chair returned to her home between Specties that made the small jobs and confidence, “because I became afraid.”

“I am very lonely right now,” he said. “I really don’t talk to others about what I’ve seen. But I feel all my body became tight, and I need a therapy because things are accumulated.”

Civil paintings workers are coming to be seen from the outside as Heroes, al-Majdelawi said. “But see what happens inside of inside you fight me a war against myself.”

As Squeasefire started, New images from San Internal Show the full dish of total, especially in the north of the sheep. The Civil Defense A Balba Mahmoud, which agency expresses deaths from under the rubbish in your difficult purpose, because other heavy equipment.

The marital difference has accused the target israel deliberately and distracting their vehicles and equipment in strike – an Israel’s accusation. The backup workers told the BBC currently worked with simple instruments of hands as hammers and had few vehicles. “We have little equipment we need another civilly defense from skip the marital defense,” al-majdalawi.

An agency portavours told Friday I could have I could pick up only 162 bodies from the ceases started at almost a week ago.

The office of office has noticed the bodies recovery could take years, because of the lack of bombs and dangerous materials as the asbestos.

The amount of time that many deaths also prevent identification process. To the European frighten in Khan Yhanisis in the south of Gaza, people were surrounded the loved one by the holds brought to the hospital and placed out on white sheets. In many cases, the only option was to look for shoes, clothes or other personal effects.

“I believe that I will recognize my son, though his face is only features and it is just such a fester, saying Ali Ashour, a professor of the university majah.

“I recognized because I am his father and I know better than a million people”, said.

Ashour Anhull harborated that Majoud can place the Mahjoud could have been taken a prisoner, said, but he said to the dead daily until I knew. “Whenever it takes more he remains that I will see”, he said. “And if you see my son I’ll stress between other bodies and bring it.”

Nisreen Shaaban has been looking for her 16 year old son, that she told her house in Beit Hanaun from 15 minutes and not returning.

“I opened every SROW Hire look for the clothes that brace, seek to stop his scope” “she said. Has been surrounded by human restraint. “I feel like, I’ll come to a cement,” he said. “It’s a city of horrors.”

Defense defense agency that almost 3,000 people were incinerated in the bombing, steals some families of their search. But there are much more than they still need to be recovered.

“These people need to be found and furtive,” al-shagnobi, the rescue worker, he said. “This job waiting for you. All we need is equipment and we’ll do it.”

Muath al-khatib and amr ahmad tabash contributed to this report.